And then sometimes I forget it's been a month since I blogged

I can't believe it's been a month. I feel like I just got here yet feel like I never left. So much has happened yet so little.

'How's Memphis?' I get asked and I appreciate the curiosity of it all. So 3 parts: FH, Memphis, Meg.

2) Fairhaven is still life-changing. My new individual therapist, Megan, is one in a million (her name helps that too). 84839538 questions of 'curiosity' thus making me question myself is the hardest yet most helpful part of every week. The group members have slowly changed and as always, are oh so imperfect perfectly supportive.

My shameless plug that I can now do a headstand!

2) Memphis is FABULOUS. I am doing 'growth track' at HighPoint to start getting plugged into the mid-20's group next week, and I already serve with HP Kids!! Karen (coach) is going to start writing in my plan a weekly run with Fleet Feet up here so I can meet another realm of fellow crazies (hehehe).

Like going to Pitter Potter- SO MUCH FUN.

3) Meg is here.
After contemplating what fabulous bible analogy to use and coming up with nothing, I decided to just share what I'm clinging to at this point; Romans 8:35-39.
"No, despite all these things, OVERWHELMING VICTORY is ours through Christ, who loved us."

That verse is powerful blah blah, but not really if you don't know the context. It starts with, can anything separate us from Christ's love? Does *insert list of terrible things like danger, persecution, calamity* mean that He no longer loves us?
*cue v. 37* OVERWHELMING VICTORY!
So it ends with NOTHING can separate us from God's love including *insert longer list of things that can never steal from us His love.*
That is beautiful. No matter the depths of suffering happening, His love overcomes and ultimately I will overcome because of His love and victory. Praise for that Truth to stand on.

At least we have light- hearted fun between groups.

SO. I understand 500% why they wanted to wait until I got here to add what we wanted to add. They are thinking it's going to work; I am hoping. The side effects are not exactly my friend. It never gets easier. However this time is better because I'm with all my FH friends who have all been here and accept my disassociation and help me out of the head space.

Training is going well. I have my first race in TWO WEEKS. I'm shaking even typing that one out. It's the most redeeming part of all of this realm right now. Training everyday because I want to; because I want to push myself; because I LOVE the sports; eating stuff before, during, and after; because its no longer just about burning calories.
Karen is surely testing that last one. Hard days are TOUGH and she kicks my ass, but easy days are easy and mentally tougher than hard days. I complain over it sometimes, but seeing my numbers get better and better is truly worth it *how to know my motives are in a much better place*.

Thankful for this girl to share our love of sports, Jesus, and RECOVERY with.
Proud of her for discharging to take on life!! 

So in short there's lots of parts: fabulous, tough, sad, thrilling, awesome, fear, frustration, love, happiness, beauty; all the things life should hold.