extremeness

So today I realized something.
I AM NOT SUPERWOMAN. I really think I am.
So I try to go from one rock to another with FREEZING water underneath me.
I don't make it, and I slip. I enter the water and to be honest for a split second I thought the water monster was going to get me. I have the mind of a 6 year old. Anyways, I get out and OH! did I mention this was only the first 5 minutes. So yes, we continued on for another hour. What an experience I had :)
Tomorrow is Passion2011.
I am SO pumped.

Also I realized last night how I 'worship' God best. Music and nature.
I am a visual person.
So with that, I lack faith.
I need proof so believing without seeing is actually something that I am not so good at.
I feel like I'm on a 'church high' which by the way..I can't stand that lingo.
But that experience I guess where I feel God is when I'm in nature. It's awesome.

ah the ramblings of me.

a day in the mountains...or a gorge

SO...i'm in north Carolina. the wonders of mountains. what do we do? decide to go in a gorge, and i will admit. i was a loud voice.
i think i can do anything.
FYI.
I. Can't.

So anyways, it was 2200 steps up and down total. I felt like I was going to die. No really.
It was SOOOOO beautiful and I am just AMAZED at what God does...really.

Now as you can see I spent a while working on this thing. I really love it.

OH! random.....
So i figured out why there is a bar for you to hold on to in the shower......
when you wash a foot you have to stand on the other...
well i did that
I fell.
even though i was bymy self i felt So embarrassed.
Sheesh next time i'll hold on i swear.

car games

So ill probably post a lot today.
Its 1030
I've learned the nato alphabet. Seriously. Google it.
I've learned quite a few major bones. In my body.
Taught dad some music stuff.
Learned new dances for awanas to teach
Man today is too productive.
Oh...mention this was all in a car.
I know. Awesome.
Half way there.
No telling what the other half holds.

car ride funness

So it is 630. I've been awake for a little more than an hour.
I've determined it should be a sin to be up this early.
Kay is just SUCH a morning person. *sigh*
Anyways...off to....where ever we are going. Not quite sure where. All I knew was bring lots of warm close we are up 3000 feet. Its with my dads sister, her 2 kids, one of thems significant other. And his mom. All for her 75th birthday.
Then I go to passion. 2 trips in one.....sheesh its been complicated.
Anyways...
Car rides...morning...not for me.

Redeeming Love

So I am re-reading Redeeming Love, and last time I read it I just zoomed through it in 2 days, and I didn't let it apply to my life because hey I'm not a prostitute, and never plan to be one, so I was like oh well that will never be me. So I read it from her perspective.
Now I am re-reading it, and just seeing it from my eyes.
I certainly don't have to be a prostitute to let Hosea have an impact on my life.
I mean we run from God...and I mean RUN. Just like Angel did in the story. She chose to live in a whore house over this perfect guy (Michael). Sure sounds like us with sin right?
We know that God is there, but just...don't want to have to give up our desires of the flesh. Don't want to humble ourselves to know that we are wrong.
Just like Angel. She'd go to Michael, then back to selling her body to men.
I mean I've certainly never done that, but I know I have sold my self to sin, and I want to be sold out for Christ.
God (Michael) keeps coming, never gives up on me (Angel).
So yea. Good book.
I plan to finish it gazing upon the North Carolina Mountains. I go Wednesday. WOOO!

I don't even know if that made sense..but..you know me if you're reading it.
I scarcely make sense.

christmas day!! Jesus is Lord-passion 7 days

So. I wake up and go to kays house, and so I helped make cinnamon rolls.
Before the 2 little ones got here dad gave me a box with some scents in it and informed me that successful people have one smell and its time for me to find mine. No lie. I wasn't sure what to say, but yea. That was interesting.
All the sibs get here and..we open. It was awesome!! I got lots of elephant stuff for kt, pink this and that. Got some boots and toms that I ordered pretty much. So, it was great.
I have been at the ladners's house for a while chillin' and they are like my other family! Its awesomeeee!
So I can't believe ill be at passion in a week. My heart is going crazy thinking about it. I think what I just want is..to feel God. In all His aspects. Mmmm I just love worship like passion. Its so..real.
They say heaven is worship for eternity. And passion is the closest you will ever get to that. So many people crying out to Him. Its amazing.

christmas eve- time flies!

So I slept at my moms house with shelby (my sister). We woke up and went to 3 different places for breakfast with my 6 ft brother who is 12. So we chill basically and looked at a few old pictures and I forget how long I've been on this planet!
Then I go to dads and go to my other sisters house and my christmas eve present was this supa-cute green watch! then made home-made cookies with kay! Mmmmm they just look sooo delicious!!!
I can't believe tomorrow is the day we celebrate the birth of Christ! Like whoa 2000ish years ago, our Savior walked this planet. Epic.
We now have 12 stockings. I feel like each year we add another! I remember starting with 6. And thinking wow that's a lot. If I only knew what was coming!
I just love big family feel! I mean a few people is fun because at moms house its a small christmas. But nothing will beat having everyone here. 30 year old sister to her kids age 4 and me in the middle almost 19.
Ahhh how time flies.

christmas adam

Today I got a call at 9am (yes I was sleeping) to come help dad at the vet clinic. I have a wierd kind of love for that place. Like its where I grew up. Then went to lunch with a grand friend and continued to get my sister and brother from their moms house.
On the way there I drive on the beach. I love the beach.
One grain plus another plus another makes..the beach. I just am mind blown every time. And then the amount of water there.
Oh.
My.
Gosh.
What else could've created this!
So Shelby (my sis) and I saw tangled which was so wonderful! Great movie!
I also today had a conversation with someone who is not sure about the whole God thing. Why she chose me is clueless. Anyways, there are lots of religions out there so how do we know we are right? Cuz I mean, we do think this. I certainly do.
One word.
Faith.
I told her this. So cliche. So true.
So, now I'm at my moms house and its going well.
The fact that tomorrow is Christmas eve is insane.

randomness thrown-up

So my friend decided to start a blog and it reminded me of my blog that I never continued. I'm gonna try now. So...life.
My first semester of college is over. What in the world? It feels as if yesterday I was 7 years old trying to play a cheat G on guitar with my dad helping and now I'm almost 19 starting to lead worship. Where does time go? Between then and now I have grown more than just guitar wise. Christ and I are striving to grow together every day. I mean wow. Almost 4 years ago my heart went from stone to flesh.
Best.
Decision.
Ever.
I was chatting with someone about the bible and how all those stories actually happened.
She didn't know it. But that moment it hit me. Noah and his ark thing actually happened. I mean can you imagine that happening now. I know God said He won't flood the world again. But I mean what if some person was like oh I'm building an ark for God. Crazy stuff.
And david and goliath? Wowowowowowowowoww.
Speechless girl here.

So. Yea. The bible thing. Really happened. Blows my mind each day.

When I say I am a Christian..

I didn't write this. but i have always seen it but i read it again today and it just really was like BAMM megan you are NOTHING compared to the GOD OF THIS UNIVERSE!! He created EVERYTHING and u think u are something..umm..no deary..as Francis Chan said..til u can say u created a galaxy don't talk :)

so read it and just let it soak in..of..how AWESOME He is.

When I say I'm a Christian I'm not shouting I am saved, I'm whispering I get lost. That is why I chose this way. When I say I'm a Christian I don't speak of this with pride, I'm confessing that I stumble and need someone to be my guide. When I say I'm a Christian I'm not trying to be strong, I'm professing I am weak and pray for strength to carry on. When I say I'm a Christian I'm not bragging of success, I'm admitting I have failed and cannot ever pay the debt. When I say I'm a Christian I'm not claiming to be perfect. My flaws are too visible but God believes I'm worth it. When I say I'm a Christian I still feel the sting of pain. I have my share of heartaches which is why I seek his name. When I say I'm a Christian I do not wish to judge. I have no authority, I only know I'm Loved.

first time

so I decided to do a blog because one of my friends said that 'I would be the one to blog' so..i'm trying it. i'll post later..i just wanted to read others blogs and see what other people say lol
-M3g@n