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| Socks and flops-my 'look' inside. |
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| Don't worry dad is still just as 'funny' as ever. |
I really enjoy videoing my people occasionally. (excluding Jenni, Pao, y AnaLu--duh they are the best part of each day. Well, them and sleep.) I am tired of social media yet cannot stay off. It is how I feel included back in the states.
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| Just a few of the many people from Pinelake Clinton I get to see every Sunday night. |
I am really processing Christ in my life with AnaLu..or some places lack there of.
Within the Christian realm there is this thing of posting pics of a coffee cup, Bible, and journal with a Bible verse in the caption. I enjoy posting encouraging Bible verses because I want my brothers and sisters in Christ to be uplifted with me because His Word is Truth. While those moments are real, genuine, and intimate, there are also moments of choosing our flesh; having non-picturesque moments with Him. The moments of running from God because you don't want to acknowledge sin. Or not spending much/any time with Jesus that morning and the day is feeling the lack of Truth.
I'm not here to tell you things that I am running from, the mornings I don't have Jesus time, or the places I am praying through allowing Jesus to enter. I AM here to tell you that being authentic about Jesus and I's relationship with AnaLu listening and challenging me, is one of the best decisions I have made here. It's hard, messy, emotional, breaking, and many other things. It is breaking every facet of my heart and putting it back together with Christ as the glue. But is also sweet, growing, progress, humbling, and many more.
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| While Davis and I took a break walking back with our groceries. I walk back home 1.5 miles every Saturday with my groceries. Remember--no eating out so legit a week! |
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| Realizing I had these headphones is one of the best parts of quarantine. |
One thing I have been talking about with Jenni and AnaLu is my identity of being a runner and finding myself in that. And one ironic thing I realized is...the very identity I am trying to get away from is the one that I for so long couldn't accept-despite being. I truly couldn't call myself an athlete; despite having run 50 miles, doing a freaking Ironman, and having many podiums. But, it didn't happen overnight. It was months of people at Fairhaven encouraging me to seek identity outside my body--so I put it in running. And that was great then. It was all apart of the healing process. However, we are in the next 'step'. Of seeing that Christ calls me to His heart to love like Him and live out His Word. And that entails finding my identity in ONE place: His arms; heart; love; Word. I am grasping that if I could never run another step, though devastating it would be, that my inner self would never change because Christ in me never changes.
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| Weekly workout dates with some Peruvian runner buds. |
My classes are great. I feel like I am really figuring out virtual teaching, and decided I could do it long term, so I am not complaining haha. That's about it right? Jesus, running, teaching..yep.
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| I contemplated not sharing- but if it makes you feel uncomfortable that's your issues. Because--I'm freaking hilarious. |
