Weeks upon weeks

My last blog was a month ago because there are so many words yet none. So many things stirring in my heart, yet day-to-day not too much thrill. The best parts are: my B 206 class, Bridget sending me nightly memes, and my Englishman BFF here and his sweet 6 year old sending me videos, memos, pics, music, art, dance shows, and when she gets the phone-emojis. My B 206 class is a teachers dream. We are transitioning to friends and will 'officially' be only friends as of Friday because they 'graduate'! (Y'all please feel free to call me Meg jaja) I know when Bridget is going to bed because my phone starts dinging with funny memes that I quite literally laugh out loud to. Maybe they are that funny. Maybe I just am that loco from quarantine. 

My B 205 class that became my B 206 with a few new friends who joined our party!

Most of the words come from discussions with AnaLu and/or Jenni (therapist and dietician). I have desired this perfect team for 5 years. It was worth waiting for. Most sessions with AnaLu involve a lot of her saying what Jesus is inviting me to, while holding space for all the messiness of life. And a lot of me eye rolling and developing humility to accept the boldness of our conversations. The perfect combo of Jesus, practicality, and delving into all the therapy stuff. With Jenni it's lots of her asking why, and challenging my eating disordered thoughts. And lots of me sighing because I see the skewedness where she is pointing out, and accepting the challenges- despite the feelings behind them. We (3) celebrate wins together, steps taken to be a better human, and also challenge the hardships that Satan puts in my head/anxiety brings into the relationship.
Oh we can't forget Spanish! It might not be 'deep' but Pao hears more randomness than both of them combined. She also lets me because I'm practicing Spanish so she hears all the things in my brain. (And she's too sweet to tell me to be quiet LOL) She knows all the things that are important only to me, but she reads and (hopefully?) likes hearing my funny/crazy/emotional stories. Like Kamp. Or Australia. (Pao--China and Canada are coming for you soon!) My homework is pretty open ended because she trusts me to do my homework because I ENJOY doing it-despite the 9587329 mistakes.

Aimless stories about that one time I was 2nd chair in all of Mississippi
and traveled to Australia. 

Church is so good. We are doing this study about going from hole hearted to WHOLE hearted people. Lots of conviction of seeing the bigness of God, the smallness of us, and the reliance that God designed us to have in Him. God has called us to not just go forward but GROW forward. We have talked about Saul (OT Saul), David, and Joseph. Living into our uniqueness like they did.
I love that my church is bold enough to talk about the emotional aspect that many Christians prefer to not address; the messiness of life. It's not healthy to not talk about all the things, and praise the Lord my church represents talking about life Spiritually, physically, and emotionally/mentally.

Session spot. And Spanish.
Actually more me laying on the concrete with my journal and Bible. 

On Saturdays I venture to Tottus and see either my American buddy, Davis, or my running buddy, Lucia. It's such a blessing to talk in person to a friend. I can't wait for the day I can run and give/receive hugs and kisses with everyone. (Note: When that day arrives--I don't apologize to all I come into contact with. I haven't hugged another human since February.) Otherwise, my days are: running in circles, lesson planning/homework, Pao/AnaLu, talking to buds on WhatsApp, and conversation club/classes. And ya know what? I'm content with it. Sure, I wish I could see/hug 'my people' in person. And sit inside Starbucks/Pizza Hut and journal my life away. But, this is the season we are in, so might as well make the most of it.

Cute headband at least. 

My hair is getting long...

So-that's that. That's where we are at. Quarantine is extended until at least June 30th. I hope to be able to see/hug some people in August. Until then. Hugs/kisses from afar.