Exciting, fun, and revelation filled things are comin'.
1) I GOT ACCEPTED INTO GRAD SCHOOL!
What? Mental Health Counseling
When? I start this summer; May 29th
Where? Mississippi College
Why? When I realized I needed to go back to school my mind instantaneously went to being a therapist; it's what *everyone* told/tells me to do. First off, I HATE doing what everyone tells me to do. But it usually ends up being the right decision *eye roll*. Anyways, in a state of Self, I realized that I DO want to help people. I mean...I'm wearing the T-shirt-I get it. The last 3 years has taught me a lifetime about mental illness being in various group therapy treatment settings. I have received and receive such great help that I want to be able to be that for others' struggling/seeking recovery.
Feelings? I am nervous as heck to start classes for mental health counseling while still trying to seek recovery myself, but am confident in my decision to go back. I am scared I'll fall, but am determined to give it my best go. I am excited to go back to school to learn more about something I am so passionate about. I am ready to start this next chapter of life mostly!
What about FF? Part time life yo. It's the new full time.
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| Trace drives are the best way to center for the day |
So..someone questioned why that happened (him being born blind). Jesus says, "This happened so the power of God could be seen in Him. We must quickly carry out the tasks assigned us by the One who sent us."- V. 3-4.
The story doesn't end there though. "He made mud with saliva and spread the mud over the blind man's eyes. He told him, 'Go wash yourself in the pool of Siloam'. So the man went and washed and came back seeing!"- V. 6-7.
WHOA! So...where do I currently stand? I am in the depths of v's 3-4. I question why the last few years has played out like it has. Why does mental illness exist? It's quite honestly beyond frustrating to have something 'wrong' that no one can see. I have been flustered by that fact lately. But...THIS is why. I am assigned the task to be an activist for those who aren't; I am to experience the power of God through it all. I am to experience daily mini miracles where I say to myself 'only God let me respond vs. react to 'X' situation.' Something to cling onto when life is in disarray.
Will my story end the same way the man's does? I'm not sure. It feels impossible, however I know our God is the God of the impossible. I also know that Paul had a thorn in his flesh that continually humbled him (of which my disorders do daily) so..who know's. I do know healing will come; either on this Earth or when in the presence of Jesus.
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| Thankful for friends to spontaneously go to waffle house at 2:30 am with! |
Oh..next blog will be a race recap of FUU (Fondern Urban Ultra). I've been 'training' for this 12 hour endurance race April 14th. Pretty stoked, nervous, and anticipating what we in endurance sport world call the 'pain cave'. #miseryenjoyscompany So, stay tuned.
