Take the jump

"Hope when you take that jump you won't feel the fall. 

Hope when the waters rise that you'll build a wall."

I want to stand to disagree with those lyrics. 

I want to say that feeling the fall is vital to human life. It's the breeding ground for creativity; for vulnerability; which leads to connection; which is a key component to human life.

It's what makes the journey to the bottom and the journey to the top worthwhile. However it's not all rainbows and sunflowers. It's sometimes painful; filled with uncomfortable moments; moments of showing up for yourself; times of letting go of shame; getting curious with your inner 'parts'; letting go of people who aren't willing to jump with you; ultimately it's embracing the vulnerability to obtain the beautiful life that you once had/were searching for.

Thankful for my people who jumped alongside me

This obviously relates to my current life state. I fell; hard. I took the jump, felt the fall, and am now 'rising strong'. (Brene' Brown writes a whole book about it. Look her up!)

I keep reminding myself to never forget when I 'dared greatly' (another Brene' Brown book); to remember that I CAN have the hard conversations; I CAN show up for myself; I WILL feel the fall but will keep fighting.

It's such an experience to 'jump' alongside friends. To be apart of their questions, actions, thoughts, emotions; all the things that embody taking the jump. 

Short and sweet blog that came to me that I had to share. 

Hope you can feel the fall to rise strong; to embrace continually transforming your life to live it to the fullest no matter the length of the jump. 

Adore

HELLO 2018!

What a year it's been. I could sit here and write novels of reflecting that majority of this year was spent in Cordova, TN in treatment. I could sit here and write of the depths of darkness and the highs of light that were all encountered. I could write myriads of reasons of why I am thankful for treatment, yet for leaving simultaneously. I WILL write however, how one 2018 goal is to not hit my deductible LOLOLOL (treatment ain't cheap y'all!)

While all of the above things are true, I want to look ahead. To be able to momentarily look back, while continually living in the moment to celebrate God's grace showering over me.

I don't really do the 'resolution' thing because that ultimately sets me up for failure. By nature, I am wired to seek the 'next thing'. Having me do ONE think for 12 months is unobtainable.

Keating, my friend, proclaimed on Facebook her 'word' for 2018 (sanctuary) and asked what ours is. I decided to ponder it, and kept coming back to adore. So-that's the word.

adoration that my body is capable enough to run TWENTY miles.

So, I want to take the year to marvel; to have complete adoration over my progress of seeking recovery; over my wellness; over the redemption that will happen this year. 

I want to adore the Cross; what Jesus accomplished for me and what that practically means for my daily life-for my fight. 

I will adore being back in Jackson; seeking recovery (no matter how strong or weak); my friends for being on my team. 

I will continually adore what my body is capable of; how resilient it is.

I will adore drinking lattes.

I adore Fairhaven, yet adore that I am not there anymore because progress happened and is happening.

I've been listening to this song and the chorus is: 

"Oh come all ye faithful, bow before our Savior. Come let us adore, the One who came for us. Glory in the Highest, praise the name of Jesus. Our King has come."