This is not a post about me.

This is not going to be a post about my aimless life and what I did. No.
This is a post about what in the WORLD just happened this summer for me.
This is a post about how the Savior set me free in Him to trust in His providential ways.
This is not a post saying that I made it through the summer.
This is a post saying that without the Lord I am nothing.

I can not get Kamp Kanakuk off of my mind. I think the Lord wants me to remember how miserable I really was; to not just remember the fun stuff. No. I was in my weakest moments at kamp, and the Lord ONLY Him brought me up. Without Him I would not have made it through the summer- I can genuinely say that. And I find contentment of who I am and who God made me to be. Yes-I AM WEIRD. I am ok with that. I learned that at kamp- I don't need to try to be someone else. "I am free to be me." And I love being weird musical meg.
I think the Lord wants me to go back to Kanakuk family kamp next summer for July. And I am Oh So ready for it too. I know that I am not finished at Kanakuk family kamp. The Lord had me all to Himself this summer, and next summer I am ready to impact other people!
Exodus 14:14-kamp verse
The Stand, If I Die Young, Ben Rector, Relient K, Psalm 145- kamp songs/artist
My life is forever changed thanks to Kamp Kanakuk Family Kamp- where I didn't want to go at all, but good thing the Lord knew otherwise.

band camp

OH MY GOSH!!
I had SO much fun at band camp :) I got to lead warm-ups mostly for trumpets and got to do 2nd part sectionals a little bit. I think it's bad that I thoroughly enjoy yelling at kids when they aren't marching/playing right. And let me tell you, I got my yelling out of me for a while. Some of these kids are just...not doing it. Moving at attention, not on step-simple things can not even be perfected. It annoys me. But the show looks great! I am incredibly proud of the GHS Admiral band and I am glad to say I am an alumni. It makes me want to major in my instrument-we will see where that goes. Either way I am SO excited to major in music-it is my inspiration for when it gets hard but I genuinely could see me teaching music the rest of my life-it's my passion. So yea. Band camp rocked. I am excited for next year already!

Soo....

So
It has been 5 whole days since I was 'under the knife' haha.
And.
I GET TIRED EASILY.
I went to dang Michaels-MICHAELS. And then went home and took a nap. Today I am doing THREE outings. WHOA. I will sleep GOOD tonight.
But-I have been sitting and LOT-watching a LOT of TV- me and food network and BFF's. NO. LIE.

Next week I am going to band camp with Gulfport.
SO.
PUMPED.
my life is boring now. Thanks surgery. Next week I will have great stories about high schoolers.
oh lordie-pray for me!!!!!! eep!!

Surgery?

So, yesterday I had surgery. I had my gallbladder taken out. Went in the morning. Michelle came. She is THE bestest friend EVER. I got anesthesia, I said, "Dear God, Ok so it's me and You now...." and I was out. Like. WHOA. The next thing I know I am in recovery acting a FOOL. I kept saying "I feel weird"...lol.
Get home-I feel great! Dee came over-I took naps.
I peed TWELVE times in ELEVEN hours. SO. MANY. FLUIDS.
Today- Dee came over again! She is the BOMB. :) She got me starbucks. She is amazing. Now we are making friendship bracelets, watching spongebob movie, and now food network. Lindy and Victoria are coming over today too. I swear-I have the BEST friends ever. Oh-and at surgery our music minister who I am friends with him and his wife came by :) and my dad's fishing friend who goes to my church came by too! I love the people I associate myself with :)
I am REALLLLLY sore today- even a slight sit up in the couch hurts. But hey- the picture was SO GROSS. I had at least 8 gall-stones, and GROSS white stuff. I mean whoa. I am glad it isn't in my body anymore!
So...yea. What a summer. The LORD is good, and has me here for a reason- this is the most I have ever been home. I am going crazy, but I love all the visitors I get for bringing me yummy stuff and the company is great!

Best. Family. Ever.

SO, along with that other post- as much as I sometimes complain about how WEIRD and jank my family is- in the end they love me so so much- enough to bring me my car 11 hours away. But the Lord had other plans, for me to go back with them. They cleaned my car (it was a BIT messy), took off a few dry rotted stickers. Brought me lots of happies, and Kay told people to send me mail because it was the vain of my existence at kamp. SO the other thing i learned from kamp is to genuinely appreciate what I have for my family. I have a LOT- more than 99% of this world will have for SURE. And I thank the LORD everyday for them all :) all 5 step siblings, 2 (almost 3) in-laws, 2 nephews, 1 niece on the way, 4 parents, and the ZILLIONS of animals along the way :) that's just immediate. oh life.
So. Thanks dad and kay for everything in Branson. Dad even made me this CUTE awesome keychain that flashed pictures. If I stayed at kamp-I had it hanging above my bed. So I could look at it every night before bed. And this cute magnet kay sent- was on my bed too. I have the best family and would NEVER trade it for the whole world.

What in the world is going on?

SO. It's been a month and a half- it was supposed to be another 1/2 of a month.
I went to Kamp Kanakuk as a cook.
Despised every moment for the first few weeks. Yes. I was home sick. To the nth degree.
Then. I gave it all to God. Then fell in love with Family Kamp. Then.
All of a sudden-got some tests run-found out my gallbladder could rupture any day now and had to be dragged basically from kamp home. With in a few short hours.
I will NEVER understand why God drew me to kamp-that was ALL Him-hated it-fell in love- then took me away.
God? What is going on?
I grew at kamp a LOT with You. I learned how to pray without ceasing. I felt like praying for a whole day was a LOT to ask- so I prayed for each meal. And- the next- sleep-waking. I walked every moment with God. He had me ALL to Himself at kamp-that is why I was there- but why I am dragged away- I wish I could figure out. Because I yearn to be back with the girls at kamp doing what I actually enjoy-cooking.
SO I have surgery July 7th at 630 am will be home by 11am- so COME SEE ME :)
I hope it doesn't hurt that much after-doing research I see that it will. Oh well. I have a God that loves me and I know I am being showered with prayer all across the country- thanks Kamp :)