Week one and week two of treatment just isn't that way. Week one is overwhelming; your desire to go home each day increases; every meal; hourly challenges; 473728 'check-in's' of how you feel.
Let's not forget this whole walking pneumonia thing coinciding with week one!!
Because going to the minor hospital the 3rd day in Cordova is the cool thing to do. |
Eventually I'll be back with those things; when I am better able to. But right now home is not the place for me, and it's ok to not be ok with that but to do it anyways because we can do hard things!
Thanks for encouraging me and getting me here. I love you Candiss no matter what! |
Group overall is encouraging and is an atmosphere where life-change will happen. It's going to be the place where this blob of 'fore-coming freedom' I have always quietly dreamed of will happen. We even did a visual exercise where we envisioned our recovered selves and it was such a beautiful experience listening to everyone's dreams and hear theirs align with mine.
TIGHTS WEATHER IS IN MEMPHIS Y'ALL |
I usually wake up at 6/6:30. Read. Do homework. Journal. Coffee. Breakfast. Take a walk (when I can run--RUN). It's a beautiful morning that is low-key to prepare for the day at hand.
Drive to Fairhaven around 9:20
check-in/vitals: 9:30
snack: 10ish
group #1: 10:30
lunch: 12:30
post-lunch process: 1ish
group #2 (sometimes a third group exists here too): 1:15
individual with my individual (Kelley) or nutritionist (Jenni) usually at 3 or so (or sometimes before vitals).
After group? If I don't run before, I'll run after; go on a walk; do homework; nap; talk to my friends from Jackson; FaceTime dates; read for fun; read for group; Netflix; hang with other girls/my roomie.
Shelby Farms is such a pretty place to walk around and run in! |
~AM group the first 2/3 weeks is 'compassion group' where you talk about your 'compassionate self'. That is the KEY word for Fairhaven: compassionate; it's pretty beautiful if you ask me. So compassion group is a little different everyday but revolves around our compassion book.
~After the first few weeks it's mind and body or some sort of non-book based therapy.
~Lunch is usually good; sometimes intense. Some days we process more than others.
~Group 2 is different everyday: relapse prevention, IFS work, mind/body, poetry, art therapy, DBT work, Nutrition group; the list could go on.
I love me some art therapy. |
Treatment is going. It's the best decision I've made for my life. I can't wait to meet the Meg that I'm learning more about. It's harder than any Ironman I'll ever do. This is a small group of people who has my utmost respect to fight for themselves, and decide to get better, no matter the cost of uncomfortable moments; I hope to get there and am on my way.
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