91

So the past month I have literally tried to blog 3 or 4 times and failed but here I am sitting here deciding to post.
I am now at 91 days until I go live in Canada for 2 months. It feels like yesterday I was finding out and feeling so lost. Now I KNOW this is what I am supposed to do and because of how sovereign the Lord is I am not nervous but ready to go.
I think I fall in love with my major more and more but yet despise it more and more daily. However this is reassurance that it IS what I am supposed to do. I have never once questioned changing because of the way it came about-which is what God knew I needed.
However now I am at a place of pondering what to do in music-I know music is it- I am staying vocal education but I just don't know if I can justify within my self giving up 8 years of pouring over being the best (second best) trumpet player in Mississippi. How could I give this up? So, alas, I am seriously praying about throwing that back into the picture and I get a feeling of excitement!
My bestie since 5th grade and another best friend are in London and come back in 32 days! I am SO ready for them to be immersed back into my life and into the MC bubble. I know they are not but we here are. I miss Michelle and Becca extremely but Jesus provided for me 2 key people to enter my life as they left and I have now gained 2 bridesmaids in my wedding pretty much (that I am alopeing for Michelle ;) ).
Mary Catherine and Jen are literally a God-sent. We are all SO different but are all striving to serve the Lord so we love each other. We made an 'honesty' policy which was probably the hardest commitment I have ever had to make. Don't get me wrong. I am honest-but this goes way deeper than 'does this skirt look good on me?'. This honesty pact involves the hard questions of life and everything in between. I know I can go to these girls with quite literally anything and know I am not being judged. I have never been called out so much in my life it's ridiculous-but the amount of how much I've grown is amazing.
I encountered a new way to pray for lost people in my life from Mel-seeing there are quite a few. It's not that I've been praying wrong-it's just not what Jesus wanted me to see. Ya see some people in my life are not going to just 'realize' their need for Jesus. Something is going to have to happen-something horrific-which none of us want for those whom we love. But if it is at the price of knowing Jesus then I need to be ok with it. So now it's not just 'God take the veil off their eyes to see you', but it's 'God take the veil off their eyes in YOUR timing according to YOUR will whatever the price'. Hardest. Prayer. Ever.
I'm in my 20's now.
WHOA.
I have the COOLEST friends EVER who decorated my room and left me 20 encouraging notes of how much they love me. It literally meant the world to me.
This is a random blog and I almost didn't post it but I figured it would be fun to look back on years from now.