I am going down to 3 days a week for the next little while because life is getting unmanageable without any time to function as a person outside of those 4 walls, and everyone at Three Oaks believes I can handle it which is encouraging. I am not finished at treatment, but I am certainly making strides to learn as much as I can while seeking recovery. We learn about mindfulness; how to practice 'radical acceptance'. We process the shallow parts of the day, and relate them to the inmost parts of our being which is only able to happen in a group setting. We learn the details of each others families, and help each other connect dots we couldn't do on our own. The people in my group are one in a million; I love those people more than I've ever loved a group of people because the closeness that is felt is pretty indescribable. There are so many times I 'go therapy' on myself and my friends and I wouldn't want to be any other way. I do so much 'homework' it's crazy, but I decided on day one that I will only get as much out of this as I put in, and I sure plan to hit this point of life once! Getting to actively seek recovery with my group members is pretty cool. I must say: my view on drugs and alcohol have been so radically altered it's pretty cool. There is so much more that goes into it than I ever thought fathomable and I am honestly finally thankful I get to be here.
How can you not find this wonderful; art therapy is on Thursday's! |
God knew I didn't need to go to Peru; be an RD; go grad school. All those things were simply myself running from myself. I simply followed what I 'felt' was right, and praise the Lord for that one!!! I can't fathom being in Peru having to hit this moment. I can't fathom having to leave the country right now--I couldn't.
So, it's simply awe-striking to know 2 years ago when I applied for Fleet Feet, simply because I love running, that God had bigger plans than I ever dreamed of. It's the best feeling talking about my staff in group; how supportive they are of me; letting me pace myself when I do go to work and including me like I am still there all the time. Getting to talk about my boss, Lesley, being my friend too, and an incredibly patient woman; still keeping me, and encouraging me all the way through. And even getting to run with her on Wednesday's! I can't fathom losing my job to go to treatment, and am endlessly thankful I have Fleet Feet to not only walk with me through it, but anxiously awaiting when I get to go back full time. Group knows my love for my job, for my sport, and for my Lord. If that is my identity for the moment; I am content with that.
#mytribe #lovemyvillage |
So. For now. I am thankful. Thankful that God is powerful and managing of my unmanageable life. Thankful that He provided the perfect place for this experience. I shouldn't be surprised because..He is God.
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